11.14.02, 15:27.
leave love to those who know.

this isn't the only thing i've been neglecting. i don't have time for anything anymore. i feel like i'm going crazy because i never have time to myself, but if i take time to myself, nothing gets done. i had a paper due yesterday that i still haven't started. the newspaper is finally finished, which gives me a break from that for a couple weeks, at least. i'm teaching at high schools, i'm running film marathons, i'm trying to juggle my classes and i'm trying to not go nuts. and none of it is working out too well because all i want to do is sleep.

i haven't done laundry in about four weeks and i haven't shaved in about the same. i'm lucky if i get a shower in before dinner time, and one meal per day isn't really cutting it. fuck.

"if i ever feel the light again shining down on me, i don't have to tell you how welcome it will be".

my fish tanks are filthy, thanks for asking. and my room is covered in hamster shavings because i don't have time to vacuum.

i don't want to write about that, though.

i realized today that i didn't even notice that the leaves changed. i love that about ontario- autumn is warm, so the leaves change colour and fall. that doesn't happen at home- it just goes from summer to snow and everything dies. but i looked out my window today and noticed that the leaves have already fallen off the trees. i missed it.

i feel so obligated to do everything for everyone, including updating this. is anyone even reading this, or am i wasting my time?

i don't like white onions.

three songs everyone should have:
john mayer, "tori".
ben harper, "forever".
andy stochansky, "here nor there".